2015 has been one hell of a ride my friends. I had two beautiful nieces come into my life, got to meet a ton of dope creative people from all over the world, travel a bunch, rebuild my work ethic and even got some coverage on videos and photos just doing the shit that I love. This week in particular though definitely let the lows catch up to my highs. A few old demons came back to haunt me which really fucked me over mentally for a minute, and in the process I lost the only person I can say I grew to love and care about in this world. I haven't been this depressed in a while, but this experience made me really think about my past, how and why I act the way I do, and what I need to do to improve things.
For the rest of this month I decided I'm gonna dedicate my time to getting inspired and learning. I've been all about doing stuff and living life in the moment, so this new approach to my lifestyles gonna be tough but it'll help me in the long run. Maybe keeping myself from my daily life will let me think more about my past and let me learn a lot about myself. Aside from myself I realized I barely know anything about art, culture, literature, music and whatever else. People quote stuff all the time and I'm just like what are you talking about and can't relate cause I've never seen that show or read that book everyone knows about. When it comes to my work I feel like I'm doing decent stuff, but decent doesn't cut it. I never really took the time to visit museums, or just lay down and listen to records to take in real work and appreciate it so I want to do a lot of that. Hopefully this will inspire me to do greater things, maybe develop a new outlook on life, and push myself to the next level.
With 2015 coming to an end, I'm gonna start getting ready for this transition into the new year and map out everything. From places I want to visit, people I want to do work with, and projects I'm gonna do, I want to try and layout the outline for my 2016 takeover. Even though things aren't the brightest right now, I know 2016 will be the year that changes everything for me.